disintegrate

rate

Presentation was rather sucky today. BUT no one was to be blamed ; i just didnt have time to present my parts. my group mates were shy to answer questions and i ended up answering most of them. but i doubt i made sense at all. :(

Spent another few hours with mindy typing out our 3204 essay. at least we started and i feel better that we are finally getting things done. (: i need to perservere a bit more and before i know it, school will end.

projects and essays are killing me!
(i finally realised why i hate school..HAHA)

i got to start on malay studies essay right now.
jeff should just put me on the www.nolife.com (:

i am too tired to blog anything! this weekend passed so quickly and tomorrow got school again. it is going to be a long day tml. a big geog presentation ( which i am not even ready for) , having my 3204 project meeting and the worst thing is that i will probably end very late. Darn it, i cant wait for school to end so that i can finally start studying.

i seriously drag the month before school closes.

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thy kingdom come camp! pls start praying. (:
too busy with camp and school to even worry about any other things.
i need to go back and prepare myself for tml's presentation.

My Saviour, Glorious One
my redeemer, living in my heart
now and forever
your kingdom come
Jesus, Son of God

hold my hand
and walk with me
you are the light that resuces me

bye bye blogskins!
it has been a wonderul journey. (:

i realised how much the threads have affected me. it didnt daunt onto me until i reflected on what happened and how i reacted. To be accused and to let people accuse your friends too was not the world's best feeling.

but well, it is over and it is time to move on.
the key is just to NOT LOOK BACK! :D

maybe someday, things will get better...
then we shall see.

this is not the end from jeanette, i promise. (:
love you guys!

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okay lets not talk about unhappy stuff! presentations and essays datelines are coming. i feel like i cant breathe all of a sudden.

you know the geog paper that i got an A for. guess what were the comments?
' For the final exams, please write bigger. Your handwriting is hard to read.'

OMG OMG OMG! Peetard is right. my handwriting is getting from bad to worse. :(

the best part of the day? PLAYING BADMINTON! ruth's brother is soooo funny , i think my stomach wont be able to take it. we spent most of the time laughing then playing. :D

Okay! For all the dog lovers in the world...

Go check out my uncle's blog at the links portion OR just click here Uncle Ken.
My uncle is a dog lover and he has set up this site so just take a look if you are free. if the google advertisments on the right hand side appeals to you, dont forget to click on that for further information.

thanks. (:

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The best thing that happened today! i got an A for my geog test! the one in which i thought that i will screw up because i wrote out of point. Apparently, only 7 people in the class did that question only. *faints

Praise God.

Gosh i got alot on mind - projects, exams and camp! i need to breathe a little more.
i need to go in faith and i need to seek Him more than ever! My expectations cant never be the same as His.

it is time to go back to my books.

All my life I'll praise You
There's no other like You
You alone are Lord
Lord Jesus

Who controls the rushing of the mighty wind
Who holds the power of the seas
Who by His word formed

A new Goong skin! :D yeah for SALLY! <3
Goong is getting more addictive by the minute.

i dont want to talk about anything that has happened unless i mention it. so if u do not have anything good to say to me about it, pls dont bother tagging. i appreciate that. :D

for the rest of u who tagged: i am really touched! THANK YOU! <3

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So it is over. it is time to concentrate on projects, essays, exams, camp and youtube! :D

the next 3 weeks is going to be HELL but when i am weak, He is strong. a perfect time away from all the virtual crap. there is more to life than to what has happened. (:

i am going to have a time of my life.

And I'll let you know
When it comes, when it comes
I'll let you know

But don't stay up for me
Don't wait up for me
If I'm not home

So I wait for fate to find me
A ball of string unwind me
Uncomfortable as a centerfold

And I realize your behind me
To help and humankind me
To see my songs can be retold

Well I'll be gone tomorrow
Yes I'm on the road tomorrow
So next time that I see you in school
It won't be for too long

i really want to express how i feel. some things are best said in here...

7 of us. :D
We shared laugher and we shared tears.
We've been through a lot over the years.
Some were good some were bad.
But I would not trade nothing for the times we've had.

The one thing that i hang on to despite everything that has happened. the one best thing that You have blessed me with. (:

For i know the plans i have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me and i will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. i will be found by you, declares the Lord...

Jer 29:11-14

Seek you with all my heart.
Suddenly, human expectations dont seem to matter anymore.

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why dont you fly?
CLICK

okay, so i am finally back home. spent a great time yesterday with clara and abigail and we caught up with each other. i really miss the times we could get to see other every week but i guess it is fine with me even if we dont get to see each other so often right now. we learn to treasure and we learn to appreciate every moment we have. :D it is in moments like these that you come back feeling fufilled and happy because friendships like these will never leave you feeling empty.

after breakfast, i hung out with clara and watched felicity. it is a darn good sitcom. i cant wait to watch everything because i have two seasons with me right now. headed over to church and studied for quite a bit. played capts and went to airport to eat. went home with bu and jeff. HAHA. seriously, i always have lots of fun whenever i take long bus rides back with them. :D

took lots of pictures over the past one day so i will let the pictures do thetalking. :D

eating at the airport. matt and qing! :D

matt, tim, sam! bubu in the background. (:

qing&me. JEFF IN THE BACKGROUND! notice the trend. :p

qing, me and sam.

sam& me

clara and me. abi's house!

clara, abi and me. :DDDDDDDD taken in the morning! we were all so sleepy. :/

abi&me

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and i wish that sometimes i didnt have to be judged.
if only the inside could be replaced by the outside.

but i have so much to be thankful with.
i have been blessed with things that i really can or cant see.
the self must learn to see beyond the problems of its own.
that way, i could find solace in the one who gives me strength.
when i am weak, He is strong.

He is my refuge and strength. :D

when the oceans rise and thunders roar
i will soar with you above the storm
Father, you are King over the flood
i will be still
know you are God

my whole face is disfigured. :( a case of outbreak of pimples. i hardly get pimples to start of with and right now, oh my goodness! hahaha. :D okay, i am just bored that is why i decided to blog abit since i wont have time to blog tonight.

friday cg at sue's house
stayover at abi's house. :DDDDDDD

just watched finish one tree hill season 4 esp 4 and this new season is really darn good. i cant wait for the next espisode. seriously, youtube is my best friend! i heard that google was going to buy over youtube and youtube may be disbanded because of piracy issues. :( DARN IT! they better not take away youtube!!!!!

everlasting
your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
your glory goes beyond all fame

i seriously cant get this song out of my head. (:

So, it is another a new skin and i know i didnt keep to my promise about keeping this till the end. it was not because i got sick of it but i think it is weird to have a skin that i just submitted into BS. oops! anyway, kat will be refraining me from changing till the end of the month. i can do it. :D

SOTD <3 thank you all. i seriously do not deserve all of these. i would have never dreamt of all of these if it was a few months ago..but i am thankful and grateful. thank you all for your support. you can be rest assured that i will be giving my fullest support to you all as we continue to build up BS community. :D

omg, what a mushy speech but ya, you should know what i mean.

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two lectures today and i was out of school! wooohooo, it is time to get back to writing my essay and watch some youtube before i sleep. it sucks that i have to use the mac because my internet connection has gone bonkers and i cant use my laptop. :(

And if I lived a thousand years
You know, I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
That day.
But if destiny decided
I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told

i have to thank peetard for sending me this song.
oliver james - greatest story ever told. :D

no matter where, but for now we're here
i submitted - pls CLICK

so today was a pretty boring day. stayed at home and managed to complete alot of my homework. spent 3 hours at heartland macs with the geog people to complete the project. at least we are moving forward. i realised that i misunderstood my part of the essay so i have to rewrite tml. more lectures tml and i have to come back and finish up on my level 3 group project.

i hate the month before exams. but at least i got something to look forward this week. i cant wait for friday to come. :D

going to start on my new layout before i sleep.
good night all. (:

Two YEAHs! for the day :
1) i only had one lesson today and i managed to write finish my group geography essay part.

2) for the first time since the start of this sem, i finished my lab work within 2 hours! so i dont have to go back and finish it! WOOOOOHOOOOOOOO! :D

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and i am glad you told me how you felt.
it really means alot to me that you still think of us...

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

i am found in YOUR embrace.
let me seek You and truly,
let Your will be done

some pictures from last saturday.

estelle & me. :D

Group picture. the guys are hilarious! :D why cant the girls take a decent picture together? HAHHAHHAHA.

i think Lab lets me see the ugly side of people. this module is a NONO! :p Lab tomorrow again. i hope i dont go bonkers. Thank God for Mindy and Farisa. An extra help is always good. THANK YOU, YOU TWO! :D

i need to hang onto His grace.
His grace is truly sufficient for me.
JEANETTE FIGHTING. :D

in everything i do,
may i bring praise to You
from the inside out

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace

no words will be able to express how i feel
i wish i knew what lies ahead.
today was heartwarming. it is like 'he' knew how i felt ; the pain of letting go and moving on and when he prayed for me, tears rolled down. God provides when you least expects it. He sends you people to bless you and to guide you. (:

i am thankful. i still do not know what is my next step but wherever He leads, i will follow. all my needs and all my concerns, i lay it at the alter. :D

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when we take group pics, we always smile the brightest. i feel it too because we all know that deep in our hearts, there is this connection that can never be taken away. that is why i dont even mind if i look ugly in those pics because i know that it does not matter how you look in the pictures, the heart matters most. the radient smiles glow from within and that will always be the most beautiful pictures taken. :D

but i believe in my heart that we will be forever.
nothing is for certain but what we have are memories that hold us together.

i must be hopeful and i believe that we all are. i am going to keep trying and i believe God has a perfect answer for us.

i am always comforted wherever i read this private entry of mine. it gives me hope because we will always be reminded of what we have of each other. i am praying that it will always be now and forever. (:

for my dreams, hopes and needs - i cast them all upon You.

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

I am tired! i have been out the whole day and right now, it is 12.30 am. Darn, this weekend is going to be really tiring. i need strength, i really need it. :p

i will be still
know you are God.

i think blogger is lagging quite badly. i took forever to get in here. :( anyway, i had a geog test today and i really think i am going to fail! i literally wrote crap and i think i went out of point. :(

seeing my mum line-dancing makes me happy. she is hilarious. :D

pictures time. :D

went over to my uncle's house today for dinner. i miss having the dogs around. :p

misty!!! :D

misty & me. i dont care! i am bias because i only let her out because she is my favourite! :D HAHA

sis and i tried to scare mum with fake lizards. HAHA! and she did get a fright and we ended up getting scolded. my uncle's house feels like a rainforest. :D

okay done.
good night world. (:

because you open my eyes
to the work of your hands
everything may change
but your love will still remains
let my words be few before You

thanks to kriss for the inspiration and the box codes. i changed my layout again and i will try not to change too soon which i doubt is possible. i have learnt my lesson too well. i got this picture from sxc and manipulated it so ya, no more legal rights problems. (: i really got a thing for flowers. dont ask me why, but i love nature. :D

lynn was sick. so i am at home too. (:
going to stat studying for the test tml.

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guess what? read this...

An egomaniacal Erika, codenamed a terrorist known as Magnette, launched the first attack against homosapiens in the early 1990s with her band of mutants, known as the "Fellowship of Mutants" which consisted mainly of homosuperiors with the most visible mutations or strongest ideals that they should be the ruling race of society and that the only way to fight the population's apprehension about mutations was with force, before it was too late. This lead to Professor Xavier starting a resistance, her ideals conflicting with her former companion and seeing the idea of peace between both types of people on the planet, and soon she created the X-Men.

my nick is a terroist name and it started the whole X Men Revolution. HAHAHAHA. (:
now this is hilarious but what an interesting fact. :D

a new layout done by kriss. <3

okay, so i bought a new phone and i am loving it. i think this blog will turn into a photoblog soon because i took lots of picture today and i want to show you all.

the first shot of the day at the bus stop facing SRC. (: look at the haze. :(

University Hall - one of my favourite hangout places in NUS.

my fav pair of birkis. :DDDD

lynnie foo. (: my company for the day. love ya. (:

where i marvel at God's creation. :DDDD

on my way home @clementi road. omg, the haze today is really bad.

There has been some complications about the skin i submitted yesterday ; some miscommunications between DA and me so i am still waiting for her reply. If i have to delete it, then i will. :D

i have nothing to hide so bring it on. (:

And everything I have
I give to You, my Lord, the One I live for
I live for You
And all my days are gifts from You
I pray I'd use them as You want me to
Use them for you

Rushed my essay till 12 am yesterday and i had a freaking bad headache after that. Darn, thank God i drove to school today. i realised that parking is free if i park at Temasek Hall so i was really happy because at least i saved money. (:

went to vivocity with lynn. a lot of shops are not open yet but the shopping mall is freaking big and i think on the 2nd level, you can go out to balcony and you can see the beautiful view of sentosa across the sea. awwww. (:

SOTD. <3
thank you everyone for your concern. like i told kat, i didnt know submitting a skin could be a form of destress. but i am really happy. so thank you once again. (:

With all I'm holding inside
With all my hopes and desires
And all the dreams that I've dreamt

With all I'm hoping to be
And all that the world will bring
And all that fails to compare

You say You want all of me
I wouldn't have it any other way

because i believe and i trust
in your unfailing love for me.

updates about yesterday : i spent my whole day at east coast and church yesterday. the haze was freaking bad and east coast felt awfully empty. Went to church and ended up playing captain ball which was a bad idea. we were practically breathing in smoke all the way and i think i felt super giddy after that. You could see the haze around you while you played. :(

church was pretty good today. i am still writing my darn essay and i have a bit more to go. i am getting super stressed up because i know that the essay is so not up to my standards. arggggghhhhhh. :(

off to dinner.

i submitted.
until a brighter day - CLICK

the haze is getting so bad that i really hope that the government would stop school. HAHA. ya, i doubt that is possible! but my eyes are getting sore from the bad air condition.

anyway, i did my essay from morning till late afternoon and i am halfway done. i think i will be able to finish it by tml night. 1500 words is really very little and i will probably exceed by alot. i need to consize and cut down on more words. :(

played badminton after that and had cell group at greg's house.
i am really tired. a long day tml. DARN.

good night, people. :D

It was another long day but i really enjoyed myself today. Went for school for lessons and headed over to city hall to meet clara. Finding marianne's present was hard and we walked for a really long time. :D met samantha and marianne at ps to eat at swensens. Headed over to gelare to eat ice cream after that. i had a good time catching up with them and i hope marianne enjoyed her bdae celebration. (:

visited issac at the hosptial.
it was great seeing him looking positive about the whole illness.
i expected worse but praise God that he is better. :D

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i am worried. i really am.
what is my next step then, Lord?

Hold my hand and walk with me
You're the Light that makes me see
On this path my soul You lead
O my Shepherd walk with me

Seek and you shall find.

I need You more then breath
You're my hope in You I live
Angels worship at Your throne
Power and Glory to You alone
My Saviour Glorious one
My Redeemer Living in my heart
Now and forever Your Kingdom come

oooooh new layout again! (:
this time, i am keeping it for myself.

i am having my writer's block right now.
i cant seem to type the words i want in my essay.
i am taking a break and will continue much later.

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how precious life is.
you never realised it until it hits you that life is fragile after all.
there are so much that we take for granted sometimes.

i was praying a silent prayer on the way to school - thanking Him for blessings that He has given to me ; thanking Him for things that i always wanted but never did. Because in all things, He will give according to what is best for me and not what i want from Him.

wake up and smell the roses

Where are you going, where do you go
Are you looking for answers,
to questions under the stars
If along the way you are growing weary
You can rest with me until a brighter day
You're okay

Today was an extremely long day! Started school at 2 but went early to get notes for my essay and i ended up leaving school at 7.30 because of LAB. Gosh, no words can describe how much i hate GIS Lab right now. But yet somehow, there is this sastifaction that comes after creating maps that were proudly made by yourself.

but still, i cant help feeling dumb because i still cant grapple with the tediousness and endless frustration of not knowing how to start creating something.

Headed back to harbour front to catch a train back and i have never realised that our cable cars are litted up with such beautiful lightings. what a pretty sight. (:

oh , i met doc john and joseph along the way.
what a pleasant surprise.

At least i started writing my essay.
JEANETTE FIGHTING. (:

The universe test today was pretty tricky! darn, i really hope i can pass! but i think i should be fine! :D Driving to school today made me realised that the Haze in Singapore is really getting from bad to worse. OMG OMG OMG, everywhere was so darn blur! :(

oh ya, pictures from yesterday. :D

Guess what is that? It looks like a mini suckling pig,doesnt it? Well, YOU'RE WRONG! it is FISH&CHIPS.:/ Weird right?

The pretty roses that we gave mingyan. :D

4/eighties. :D

the girls with james and melvin.

So, it was a pretty enjoyable dinner at new york new york. The food is average though. They give free cotton candy so that was a nice surprise. Getting to know the guys went pretty well. Those two are a nice bunch. (:

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okay, i need to start working on my essay tml! :( 1500 words, here i come!
i need to start thinking of an idea for my new layout.

Did you know that they are showing one tree hill season 4 on youtube? :DDDDDDD Okay, that just made my day even though i havent finish watching season 3 yet.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY, MINGYAN! (:

Going off to new york new york to celebrate yan's bday. Be right back to update. i cant wait to eat there. :D